The honeymoon is over

Since Ryan was born he has really been doing very very well. They say that premature babies have a honeymoon period which is usually 2 or 3 days. Ryan's was about 10 days and we knew this day would come. Monday and Tuesday were long hard exhausting days. Monday he had his primary nurse Kim back who is a walking angel and Ryan loves her. Kim could tell something was off with him after being off for the weekend. She sent down a blood culture and it came back positive. So he is fighting an infection currently amongst some other "stuff" and we will leave it at that. I can't imagine being 1 lb 5.5 oz fighting off an infection.  This kid is a true hero in my eyes. 

Positives since he has been born, no head bleeds!!!! Everyone should stand up and yell thank god right now!! He is being fed breast milk which he loves and I'm so happy I can provide that for him.

 I also got word that he is up on his weight so he is gaining. I called at 3am so I can't remember what the nurse told me but I remember he is up 20 grams so that's all that matters.

I know people have been asking to see Ryan and for pictures. We won't be sending out any pictures of him. It's hard because we want everyone to see him but he has a breathing tube and is so small. Maybe in a couple months we can share a picture. Just picture the cutest little man in your head with the most perfect feet and little body but with long fingers :). People have also been asking to come see him. As much as we want everyone to meet him visitors are only allowed for immediate family. He can't wait to meet everyone visit when he comes home in August. We can give him high fives and kisses from people though so just tell us ;)

Despite the longest day emotionally of my life, I got to hold my baby for the first time since he was born today. It was the best 5 minutes of my life. 

I'm blabbing, that's all for now! Fingers crossed for a better report at rounds today. 

Lots of love

Andrea Shawn and Ryan